January 2014 Playlist

As twelve midnight strikes which signifies the coming of the new year, I suddenly looked back to the previous year...nothing has changed...not an inch which makes me sad because everybody is just changing and I don't feel the same and I don't know why and it creeps me.

"Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same"

-Everybody's Changing, Keane

I tried to have a positive perspective, there are times that this attitude helps me but most of the time I just feel down without knowing what's causing it.

"All night hearing voices tellin' me that I should get some sleep

Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'

Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown

And I don't know why"

-Unwell, Matchbox Twenty

And it lingers...

"And if you close your eyes,

Does it almost feel like

You've been here before?

How am I gonna be an optimist about this?

How am I gonna be an optimist about this?"
-Pompeii, Bastille

So most of the time I just show my smiling face because it's easier than explaining to others how I feel.  I feel like a zombie and I sometimes catch myself in the burst of crying.

"Let me take you down

Cause I'm going to Strawberry Fields

Nothing is real

And nothing to get hung about

Strawberry Fields forever

Living is easy with eyes closed

Misunderstanding all you see

It's getting hard to be someone

But it all works out

It doesn't matter much to me"

-Strawberry Fields Forever, The Beatles

The Beatles or the Rolling Stones?  Hard question since both of them are great.  I repeat:  BOTH OF THEM ARE GREAT so the only option I have is to be great!  I am young, I'll make a lot of mistakes and it's okay.

"I can feel it in my bones

Gimme sympathy

After all of this is gone

Who'd you rather be?

The Beatles or the Rolling Stones?

Oh, seriously

You're gonna make mistakes, you're young

Come on, baby, play me somethin'

Like, "Here Comes the Sun"

Come on, baby, play me somethin'

Like, "Here Comes the Sun"
-Gimme Sympathy, Metric

It's gonna be hard but this is my life and I should take charge and control it.  I will be great and whistle a happy tune :)

"Hey heart, won't you run again

On the highway, on the highway

Cause it's your heart, it's alive

It's pumpin' blood

And it's your heart, it's alive

It's pumpin' blood

And the whole wide world is whistling"

-Pumpin Blood, NONONO

Totally Non-Beauty Haul

It must be the "grandma" attitude that was activated as a person grows old?  I do not have my own house but when I got back to Manila I suddenly bought kitchen tools and other stuff for home.  My sister and I (and even one of my brothers) like going to the furniture/house section of a store and will always be fascinated with bed-frames and kitchen stuff and dream of having them in our imaginary houses (which will materialize soon, we are still hoping).

So aside from black pants and some personal stuff *ahem undies*, we (my sister tag along since she's excited to know what will I buy and she's probably reading this now and we kind of force our niece to come too) bought the items from my December wishlist yipeee!!!!

I didn't intend to buy from 3D but they are both from 3D

I did not research as to what affordable brands are the best but these two look sturdy, hope they last forever though nothing last forever (why do I always contradict my statement???).  Now I can make smoothies and fluffy icing for my cupcakes :D

I know, it's totally unappealing pic

When I looked into the wooden spatula (it's actually a rice spoon), I saw myself making another tomato sauce for pasta so I just have to get it plus the color looks really nice I think it  matches the green kitchen of my sister (not the sister that I always mention here).  The rolling pin is for sugar cookies and soon for pizza another yipee.  Which explains why I bought a cheap cookie cutter, I wanted the fancy ones made from brass or stainless but they are expensive so I went for with plastic (yikes!).

I'm supper happy with these items

I just love the cow having the potato hat (I hope mugs will not be my addiction) that I even got it even if I'm not born in the year of the cow.  The lovely glass that is now a house to my small number of blushes and lip balms is from my mom's collection that I brought with me when I came back to Manila from the province.  I hope she won't find it missing (another yikes!).  I also bought some fresheners, I love to sniff them even if it's not Christmas anymore (I hope they go on sale soon, I'll definitely buy more).

That's it.

Thanks for reading. Till then. Bye!

Happy 2014

It's already late but let me greet you Happy New Year!  Hoped you had a blast and that many blessing will come your way this year.

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As of this writing I am wearing a mask and have to avoid people because based on my brother's reaction, I may scare most of the member of the household and probably my mom's customer from her modest shop so I decided to just be in front of the computer and silently thank our neighbor for their wifi (thanks neighbor for the free wifi).  I originally do not intend to post anything or search for tips on job hunting, instead I planned to just sit and do a lot of thinking, you know midlife crisis thingy.  But after some drinking of cola and sparkle, munching some hard granola bars, more laying around and watching my brother sweep the leaves, I have nothing to ponder.

So I just made a rough list to do before 2014 ends and maybe tomorrow I'll just write on the details on how to achieve them.

1.  DIY and Crafts
I'll be making my own planner, recipe book and other kinds of books (I'll recycle my old planners that I haven't use) plus I would also love to design my own sneakers so I'm looking forward to make a studded one and a sneaker with cross pattern *cross finger*.

2.  Brush up thy reading
I just have to have the courage to read all the books that I hoarded the first quarter of last year and I'm planning to schedule them on a monthly basis so hopefully before 2014 ends, I'll hoard tons of books to read again (any suggestion?)

3.  Whisk and simmer
What's the use of the recipe book that I'll be making if nothing is on it?  So I promise myself to at least cook 14 recipes and bake 14 sweet goodies (potential business?)

4.   Be normal
I am not talking about my weirdness here, it's my weight.  I look a bit chubby to the eyes of many so many people are surprised whenever I say that I am obese.  Aside for looking for a great and awesome job, weight loss and being healthy is on my priority list. 11 kilos to lose and I'm hoping to achieve this goal before this blog or my birthday strikes.

5.  Widen my money makers.
Investing in stocks or mutual funds are the only means that I have in mind right now but feel free to share your techniques or ways on how to make lots of money hehehehe- good and legal way, okay?

6.  Discover new places
I didn't have any travels last year wahhhh instead I went to concerts (which is an awesome experience especially The Killers concert last September).  My passport is ready to be stamp and I'm planning to go maybe in El Nido or Batanes or both or more places if I have the means.

7.  Be a Rockstar
It's an impossible dream but I'll at least try right so I'm planning to learn how to play the guitar (or ukelele?).  I tried learning the basic chords last year but I couldn't play any songs and I suddenly gave up (boo to me) but I'll try again this year (wish me luck)

8.  Language? Calligraphy?
It's frustrating that it's hard for me to learn how another language.  I enrolled in a Spanish class in Instituto Cervantes but didn't move to the next level even my teacher said that the whole class is qualified to the next level.  I just don't like learning in a classroom setting I guess so I'll just rely on the books that I have and the application that I have in my Ipod and if both fails then I'll move forward with calligraphy.

9.  Improve content
For this blog, I guess I have to improv it's content and probably add more personal toch to it.  By personal touch I mean adding some post that are related to what I do and like (like my reads, some crafts and playlist) aside from reviews and other kaartehan.  Lately I noticed that I say a lot of rubbish things that probably makes you go nuts...well expect more of that in 2014 but I'll still do my best  to be sane 75% of the time plus I have to improve the state of my photos so promise, I'll buy batteries for my camera.

10.  Be cool
Ehhhhhhhhh, I'm not so I wanted to be cool.  Any idea how?

Cheers to a brilliant 2014!

Thanks for reading. Till then. Bye!